You my future my happiness my heart my idol
Seven seconds ‘til I hit the ground,
But you saved my life
Now I feel indestructible
So protected when you’re around,
Yeah, you saved my life
IDK Y I SLEEP, ALL IT DOES IS REMIND ME MEMORIES OF MY BEST FRIEND. MEMORIES THAT I JUS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I WONDER IF I QUIT MY JOB WELL THINGS GET BETTER ? LIKE WOULD ALL THE BULLSHIT STOP ? EH W.E. IDC ANYMORE, TO CARE IS WASTE MY TIME WIT LIL THINGS.
This year has been a bad year, I have no good memories of this year well expect the 3-day weekend I had in June. But other then that it hasn’t been a good year. I’ve just been a big let down to everyone, especially to my best friend. We done nothing but fight this year. Said something and done some things we regret. Even now we are fighting and make me think if we r going to continue til New Year’s Eve. I don’t care where I’m at on New Year’s Eve, just I wanna be next to you when the clock strikes 12. Be able to hug you and welcome the New Year. A fresh start, new adventure’s, new battles to overcome, and new places to see. I know I’ve broken promises, hurt you, lied, many other things but I do need you more than you’ll ever know. Hopefully I get my second chance at you cause your everything me, ans starting a New Year without is like it will never start at all.
I sit in this classroom thinking about yesterday. I step in inside that house and felt strange like everything was new to me. I say hi to people I known but it felt like I was saying hi for the first time. Missing my second family. Missing you, having clips of memories running thru my mind and there all of you. So when does movie end and does it even have a happy ending? Or happy ending just an illusion of the mind? Were we an illusion? It felt real, did it feel real to you?
The path I walk, is path nobody will choose. I walk it alone and I don’t want no one to to follow me because it best that way. It better to this way so no one has to bare this burden.
Hmm. Truth? What is the truth? What is honesty? Is it things that need to be said to a person so they know what there doing wrong? Or is it when someone need a reality check from the world? They say the truth hurts, maybe that’s why everyone lies to each other, so they don’t hurt each other. I stay far away from the truth, I stay so far away from it that the world I live in is a lie. I’m a walking lie; you see the foot prints I leave behind are lie because they ain’t leading you to me. My own heart lies to me, it tells me it beating but it really isn’t. My heart is dead, it just there pretending for others. but it die a long time ago. They say they want the truth, the whole truth and nothing but truth so help me god. This ain’t court and I haven’t broken any laws. Just know that the lie I live for, is for protecting those around me. I wear there armor so they won’t have to fight. My motivation, my reason for living is all in my back pocket. i hear what everyone saying I just go about my own way. The lying way